Day 25: Easily Frustrated
Today, I don’t plan on sleeping much.
I’m not sure about the rest of the world, but I generally have issues sleeping. It’s been a problem for a couple of years now, but I can’t seem to shake my late night turning and tossing. Back when I was in elementary school, my mother would try to coerce me to sleep early – making me write essays on the negative consequences of no sleep as punishment. Although I now have some pretty interesting facts about insomnia under my belt, I still find myself awake at the most inopportune times. For example, today, at 12:56am, I am starting off Wednesday on a sour note. Even with a long day ahead of me, I can’t seem to stop obsessing over some things that were said to me during a few hours ago – specifically, slanderous comments directed at my personality. I won’t go into great detail, but I am quite frustrated that I could be possibly viewed in such a negative light. Perhaps I am being overly sensitive, and of course, the other party said these things out of anger – but there is always a sliver of truth in every comment. That’s what’s truly frightening, I suppose… and I believe I will take these next few hours until dawn breaks thinking doing some self-reflection.
I can relate – I am either sleeping too much (borderline narcoleptic) or not sleeping enough (or, ahem, online when I should be asleep *twitch*). I also fret over what people are thinking of me, although less so as I get older.